you who taught me how to be a pirate,
you who taught me how to colour inside the lines.
you who taught me how to respect the army,
you who called me grandaughter.
i salute you sir.
i do not remember much of you.
but i do remember seeing you in your bed, a smile one your face.
as you slept.
the longest 'nap' you would ever have been on.
we visited your grave, i put some flowers on it.
i haven't been since the first time.
but i plan to one day.
i want to be able to face the tears i do every time i think about you in person as i stand in front of your grave.
give me time,
and i will find my courage.
i love you grandad.
the one who stood by me since i was in my mothers womb,
you who protected me from everything and eveyone.
you who were in many ways, my big sister.
you who showed your love violently.
you who i'll never be able to visit.
because we scattered your ashes somewhere.
i don't know where.
but i know you watch me.
with your tail swishing and your ears perking at everything i do.
to my cat cleo.
my almost 16 year old cat,
who died on my last day of year 6.
( you guys all probably find it weird that i'm writing about my cat.
but she was with me literally since my birth. and i thought someone really hated me to pull her away from me when i wasn't even 12 ( she was though.... the cat was 6 months older than me e_o ) and i knew she would've died anyway.
but i would've been happy to have had her there for my 13th.
so i could finally say 'i'm a teenager too fleabag!' because at the age of 2 she was already 14 in cat years...
it might seem strange to you guys but she was with me through a lot of the bad stuff in my life and she stayed and kept me sane.
because a cat is smarter - no ooffence doggy lovers - than a dog.
it feels no obligation to stay even if it's wanted.
so if a cat stays with you for as long as she stayed with me. - even on the very last day of her life she didn't leave my side till i left for school -
you should feel blessed.
because her kittens felt the need to leave us but it was their choice.
I usually don't like poems but yours saff i love. <3 there so beautiful and sad but have so much felling in them, its just amazing! (oh by the way, HI SAFF! >.> really long time since the last time we talked! =D )
in this book i have the recipe for disaster. if you want to know what it is. ask, and i shall tell you, "what is written here is the greatest threat to all man kind, the names of my friends."