momme gave me and sissy a empty bok she sayed to riet in it all the time.
December 25-age 4
IT'S CHRISTMAS (writen excesivly big in diffrent colors)
I got everything I wanted, it was all better then saffys stuff, thats probly why she pulled my hair, I was telling erin about my toys and she just pulled my hair for no good reason. I am upset that she got introuble thow mommy was realy meen to sissy, i wanted to play cracker with her, but momy said no.
april 10th- age 6
today I got my private tutor today, but she was boring, she droned on about the correct way to use a period, I wanted to go outside and play in the forest, I loved playing in the forest. I really wanted to see miles but he only comes to the castle when we need a hat. he is a funny boy, I wish he was little like me, but he is like 14 or something, he always brings me candy. (pictures of candies all over the page)
october 1st.-age 7
saffy got in trouble agian, but this time I am sadder then ever because she is gunna get sent away. I don't want her to go to aunties house, she always looks so serious, I don't like serious people, they make me feel like the world is boring, I like crazy people, they are always fun to be around.
saff left yesterday for aunties, no one even told erin tell after she left that she was gone. erin cried all day, I tried to tell her a joke, it was one of my own jokes, "why do birds fly, but cats don't? because if the cat could fly, birds wouldn't exist." hehe that one always makes me laugh, because a cat eats birds. but erin didn't get it, I told it to miles and he seemed to like it.
december 24th-age 7
our first christmas without saff, I wonder if she will visit us tomorrow, she better, it will break erins heart if she doesn't show up tomorrow for christmas, she has stopped crying, and even laughs at my jokes, even though I think she is just being polite. everyone else thinks she is ok now, but I can see it in her eyes, the heartbreak is still there, she is so strong, holding all that sadness in them. even though I acted like It didn't bother me, as soon as saff left I cried every time I was alone, the only person to see me was miles while I was in the woods, he lives in a cottage out there, I had no idea, but he invited me to tea some time.
after months of asking I finally got to stay the night with saff at our aunties castle, she had talked about a boy during christmas, I wonder if I will meet him, miles has been acting weirder then usual, he is speaking in incoharent prases about ravens and other stuff, dr.march said it might be something to do with his hat making job. I wounder what it could be, I like him this way, he is so much funnier and his jokes are much better, he asked me "why doesn't an elephent have feathers?" and the answer was "because the giraffe would get jealous" HAHAHA that's is my favorite joke, but I don't go to his tea parties anymore, he is starting to scare me more then the creature my parents keep in the back of the castle, they told me not to go near it.
miles stopped ageing, he has also stopped being so crazy, he is stuck in tea time he says, someone tricked him into messing up his own watch and now he is stopped aging dr.march was astounded at this, she didn't know what to think. but I know how it happened, he believed time stopped, so it did for him. dr.march thinks I am crazy and wants to examan my brain to insure I hadn't leached some of miles crazy from him. anyway the real reason I was writing is because saffron has been acting weird, I am not gonna tell on her, but she seems to hate mother, I am good at reading people because I look at things diffrently then others, thats how I know erin is sad, sense she doesn't cry, just stays very quite usually.
it has been a long time since I wrote last, I have no need for such trivial things, I am to busy exploring noadays, but I HAD to tell you about this diary, Miles has become head of my mothers army, those other knights creep me out, they are all chess peices, I don't like auntie red, but she has style, card knights, now that is classy, I love the way the wobble about and how they have to have holes in them to keep them from blowing away in the wind, I think it makes them look funny.
it has been over a year since I wrote in you diary, and I feel I must apologize for what I am about to permanently place in your bindings, but this is just to great. there was a man today, he was harrasing me, erin and saff, erin was getting very scared, she acted like she wasn't but I could tell, and saff was also a bit scared, although not as scared as erin. I was about to pull out my special knife I kept for safty in the woods, but saff was quicker, she pulled out her horse from when we where little, it looked diffrent, but thats not the great part IT TRANSFORMED, it became a beutiful scythe, I loved its gleem in the sun. then something horrible happened, saff sliced through the guys head, clean and perfect cut. I had killed monsters before, but never a person, this scared me more then I have ever been scared. I fought creatures in the woods before, and the sight of blood never freaked me out, but the blood was fromn a human, and the face landed stairing stright at me, I screamed and blacked out, and when I awoke I was in bed and saff erin was next to me, cleaning sweat from my forehead, I knew that saff had been acting weird, but I didn't expect her to...will kill someone.
been training secrectly with miles lately, if my older sister is going to be my queen, then I want to be her greatest knight, and so miles has been hardening me, I am learning to use a sword, my old one was made of wood, it was the one I got for christmas my first year with you diary, but now I have a special sword, I saw it in a desplay case in the hidden room of the castle, it was said to be owned by the greatest warrior of wonderland, he was the first to kill a jabberwocky so it is a pretty cool sword, no one knows I have it. auntie once tried to teach me and erin about battle, she said that we should try to get married to a nobleman, so we won't have to be in battle, she said we don't have the mental ability of a warrior, especially me, she said I probably couldn't pick up a sword without thanking it was a javalin and flinging it. she said the one thing you truely need is to love the sight of blood, but miles feels diffrent, he said thats how strong warriors think, but perfect warriors respects the person they kill, to an extent that given any other choice they wouldn't have killed them. he even said crying for someone you killed is ok, but only after the battle. I wonder how long miles would last in the kingdom of cards.
mom is teaching saff to ride that creature in the back of the castle, I think she said it was a bandersnatch or something, I want to learn to ride it, I wonder what it looks like, what it acts like, it used to scare me when I was younger but I would walk by it's cage and feed it stuff, it started to like me because when it would smell me coming It would quite down, but now saff told me it has taken a liking to her, probably thinks that she is me,
january 8th-16 I saw the creature today, now I know it thinks saff is me, It uses it's sense of smell alot more then most creatures, if I hadn't been feeding it, I bet saff would have had alot more difficulty riding it.
( surely they'd have differant feelings? because i'm sure saffron would just feel the thrill of being on the beast and feeling so powerfull and unstoppable- alice would probably cuddle it <3 - thats what i'd acctually do~ )
I just met the funniest person, momy had a guy come over and make us all hats, he isn't an adult but he is a big boy, he kept telling me to sit still while he measured me, he moved really fast. he said I wasn't good at sitting still, but that I could still have a candy because I told him a funny joke. I hope I see him agian. maybe momy will get me a hat for the christmas party and I can see him then.
SHE YELLED AT ME, saffron, yelled at me how dear she do that, that monster thingy was scary until I started feeding it, it would have been as mean as aunt redds but saff thinks I was doing something wrong will we'll see what she thinks after I ride the bangersnatch or whatever it is called. I am gonna ride it better then her, then she will never yell at me again.
Today I rode the bandersnatch (I figured out the name by reading a book about them, I wanted to be prepared) it was amazing, it was nothing like a horse, and it wasn't like anything I have ever done before, the bandersnatch really likes running, but it also jumped into the trees and ran through the trees, that was the cool part, I got it back before saffy came to ride it, so I ran away hopefully she didn't notice.